This is what other people hope that I would achieve it and some of it are someone else wishes where they burden on my back. Although it’s only my first five months in the service, yet I don’t feel any satisfaction that I can brag to anyone (except for the salary and holidays). Sometimes, I’m almost suffocating myself with things that are not supposed to happen in my life. Basically, the process of learning is happening but it turned out to demotivate me by the end of the day. I’m not sure if this field is my patience because normally the patience can come if it satisfies us.
I have no idea what I’m going through right now. I’m not sure if God had created this journey for me or I’ve suddenly make myself jump into something which regrets me. After all the hard works and sacrificed that I went through last year, I don’t think it’s worth it if I compare with things that I had to go through this year. Wow, I don’t know if this job can last forever…. Do I have a choice?
Note: This is something which I could not share with my parents because they don’t understand what I’m going through at these moments.
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