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This is what other people hope that I would achieve it and some of it are someone else wishes where they burden on my back. Although it’s only my first five months in the service, yet I don’t feel any satisfaction that I can brag to anyone (except for the salary and holidays). Sometimes, I’m almost suffocating myself with things that are not supposed to happen in my life. Basically, the process of learning is happening but it turned out to demotivate me by the end of the day. I’m not sure if this field is my patience because normally the patience can come if it satisfies us.
I have no idea what I’m going through right now. I’m not sure if God had created this journey for me or I’ve suddenly make myself jump into something which regrets me. After all the hard works and sacrificed that I went through last year, I don’t think it’s worth it if I compare with things that I had to go through this year. Wow, I don’t know if this job can last forever…. Do I have a choice?

Note: This is something which I could not share with my parents because they don’t understand what I’m going through at these moments.

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My little princess was with me the whole week and because of that, I did not have any space to post news. I tried to stay-up and wait for my turn to use pc but I my eyes can't stand the long hours that I had spent to look after my little princess at home. I felt terrible for not having the extra energy in my body and soul. Maybe I need to do some work-out or maybe I have to start eating healthy foods. Apart from that, my eating habits has gone terribly out of controll. It turned out to be worst because I'm coming back to my mother's place and speaking about my mother, she always brought foods home when she comes home and even brings us out to eat when she fells like eating something that we could not prepare in the kitchen. I'm so thankful!
I noticed that, Qistina is now a new boss in our home. She directs everyone to do things to please her. For instance, she screams or cries when she could not hold the spoon by herself and in order to make things easy, I have to run to the kitchen to get another spoon to feed her. A lot of things that attracts her now and I'm so excited to explore new things in her world.

Posting News

Glad to check that I was posted to Malacca.I guessed Malacca is the right place for me to start my career in the education field since that piece of land is my hometown. I am not sure which school I'm going to teach but whatever it is, I'm still waiting for my exam results. That is the assurance whether I could start my career in January because if I failed the paper then I need to sit again the exam in January 2007 and would only get my posting somewhere in the middle of the year.Now, I have nightmares every night because I would not want to sit for the exam again and suffer my brain to memorize again all the methodology, philosophy, literature and many more. Hopefully, luck is at my side!

Although I can pull a deep breath because I was posted in Malacca, but I sympathized some of my friends that was posted to other states where they did not asked for. I knew how they felt especially when they need to leave their families behind and shift to a strange place whereby they have to meet with new people and introduce themselves for several times until they get bored with the process. I guessed they don't have any choices and I believe there would be happy moments although they have to go through a bitter journey in their life!

Second Casting

Place: Passion Pictures, 210 Jln. Ampang.
Date: 12 December 2006
Job: Dynamo TV Commercial (In the process of selecting the suitable talent)


My daughter's talent agency tagged me regarding a casting for a tv commercial last week. I told the news to my hubby and he was happy to take a leave from his job for the sake of taking qistina to try her luck for the job but, I felt the other way since I was aware that I am broke for the next four months plus the car's aircond broke down. I felt reluctant but atlast my hubby did a good job to make me changed my mind. To tell the truth, the journey was sucks. The weather was hot and there was a few times we had to face with traffic-jams. I was not angry with the situations but I was annoyed with the air-cond which brokedown at the wrong time. Me and hubby was not happy with the car condition and we decided to go home straight after we had our lunch at The Mall.

First Casting

Place: Adam Photo Studio, Mutiara Damansara K. Lumpur

Date: Jun 2006

Job: Nestle Print-Ad

My little princess was only 11 months when she did her very first print-ad.Me and hubby was over-excited about it because both of us would want to expose different things in life to our beloved daughter. Apart from that, I believed that everyone of us are born with human potentials and it needs to be polished. That was why we felt glad when our little princess was offered with this job and indirectly, we managed to recognize her inborn talents.I would like to stress that we did not do these for the sake of money but the most important part is that, I want my princess to mix and play with different types of people so that, she could enhance her self-confidence and manage to critize anything without fear.
Wow, I guess that I have a big dream for my little princess...